brelaina:

(Doing this alphabet thingy for modern AU Anders, expect it’s kind of not Anders and an original character, but kind of is Anders… but kind of isn’t. Sort of. Something like that.)

He’s seen it too often in the hospital. Seen the women with bruised faces, children with broken bones.

He’s experienced it, too.

But he doesn’t remember.

He keeps it from himself, a protection mechanism, because he knows if he admitted the truth… he wouldn’t survive.

He can’t live through what he went through again. He can’t allow those memories to resurface.

Blank, lifeless eyes.

He suppresses it.

He used to love them. He still does.

Shoves it deep down inside him.

There’s blood everywhere. Most of it isn’t his.

Where it can’t hurt him, where he’s left oblivious and naïve.

The physical pain dulled days ago, because now the only thing he can focus on is the body before him. Dead. Unmoving.

Where he’s left free from pain and heartbreak. Free from torture. Free from the abuse.

Because that’s what it is he went through.

Abuse.

Physical, psychological. It went on for weeks.

He’d be dead if he admitted what happened to him.

So he doesn’t.

Because the abuse has made him weak, and a coward. And he doesn’t care, because it’s covered up deep down him.

And he doesn’t even realise it’s there any more.

A is for Abuse, B is for Bethany, C is for Cutting, D is for Death, E is for Earring, F is for Fenrir, G is for Garrett, H is for Hurt, I is for Isabela, J is for Justice, K is for Kinky, L is for Life, M is for Memories,N is for Nemo, O is for Oblivious, P is for Prince, Q is for Quiet, R is Under A Cut for Spoilers, S is for Scars, T is for Trust, U is for Understanding, V is for Vengeance, W is for Wolves, X is for X-Rays, Y is for Yule, Z is for Zimbabwe